Thinking of You

It has been two years since you have been gone and not a day goes by that I don't think of you. I remember one day in particular when it was near the end and you were sitting in your favourite green rocker up in your room covered with that pink blanket I bought you. I was lying on your bed looking up at that pink sea shell light fixture. It was early afternoon and none of your favourite shows like Judge Judy were on. I just finished reading "The Judds" to you and I said, "Mom I don't know how I am going to live without you." You took a deep breath and said, "Well, I have to go because it is your turn. That's just the way life works." We continued to talk about all the good times we had together throughout the years and she said, "It is time for you to really be there for your family." Looking back she was right. My daughters and husband need me more than ever. Tessa is expecting her first baby in the fall and I have been right by her side. I can't wait to be a Gramma. I know that Gary and I will be great grandparents and that little Isabelle Suzanne is going to be so spoiled. Kristel is slowly coming into her own too and she needs me more than ever as she enters into adulthood. I don't feel a newly found freedom because you are gone Mom. I think you will always be a part of my life as you have been in the past. I feel your presence and see parts of you in me and I am proud to be your daughter. Love always, Suzanne